Hmmmm

Its been a while since my last post and to be honest it feels like an eternity.

A friend posted an old picture of me a couple weeks ago, from the start of collage.
I looked at it and wonder how i turned from that honest and good person into the self destoying person i am today.
All i seem to be able to do is hurt any woman i have actually cared about.

I havnt been sleeping well of late, this is mainly because everytime i try to sleep the memorys of what i have done and the self hatred always creep in.

I seem to have taken many steps back in life, i'm trying to find the willpower to get back ahead but my god its taking it out of my spirit.