Well its happened
All work done, college finished and the summer is upon me
Although at this rate i'm gonna drive myself mad before the end of it
There have been problems in my life over the last year or so that i finaly thought i was getting over.
i cut down on the drink
i was eating well again
i pulled of the ocational real smile
hell i was even getting back in shape
but....
I seem to have regressed over the last two weeks
once again i keep finding myself alone when there are so many people there for me
sitting in the dark with drink and fags in hand and trying to hold back the emotions i know will drive me mad
i went out last night knowing full well i would end up in the pub garden on my own with wiskey and fags while the rest were inside enjoying themselves
yet i still went out with a vein hope of a good night ahead
my mind seems to be forever dwelling on the past and that bitch
no thats not fair
they were a good time with a bad ending like all relationships
i'm starting to get in a bad mood so i'm going for a drink and a smoke to calm myself down
wright again soon
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